Jamie Pelaez's Blogger Blog: It's our 6th Anniversary and another very special day!

I cannot even believe it has been 6 years since Chaz and me have been together. Sadly there has been more bad times than good. I will say this year has been one of the better, but still has a long way to go to a fulfilling and functional marriage. Thankfully as each day passes he is coming closer to realizing just how much he needs YaHuWaH in his life and just how important it is that we live according to His Word so we can have a happy family and life in general. The more Chaz lets go of the bad, the better things get. I look forward to the day he truly accepts all of the truth and hungers for more of it. When I get the courage to, I plan on writing out a lot of our trials and tribulations because I know some one somewhere out there will benefit from such writing and transparency.

What we did not know when we got married on October 15, 2004 in the courthouse in Fayetteville, NC was the significance of October 15th. Nor would we realize that day what the following year on that same day would mean to us. That there would be no celebrating our first year together because there was nothing but pain to celebrate in more ways than one.

For those that don't know October 15th, is the official Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. We lost our first child Ayden on October 6th, 2005 he was full-term stillborn. It's one of the very strange/odd events of that whole year pertaining to Ayden. So many warning signs in the spiritual realm existed but I was too wrapped up in the pain of our failing relationship to see all the warning signs. If we would have done some research, we would have never chosen Oct. 15th to get married even though we would have had no way to know that day in 2004, the following October 15 and every one thereafter would be a very bittersweet reminder of losing our Ayden.

In October 1988, President Ronald Reagan Proclaimed October as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. "When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, their isn't a word to describe them. This month recognizes the loss so many parents experience across the United States and around the world. It is also meant to inform and provide resources for parents who have lost children due to miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, molar pregnancy, stillbirths, birth defects, SIDS, and other causes."

So, if you know someone (friends and family hurt over loses too) or are someone who as lost a little one, light a candle tonight for that little angel and say a prayer and know while I understand why you ache to hold them once more, they are in the best hands that exist. If you ever want to talk about your loss or a family member's loss, I am here for you. You can comment back here, email me or skype me: jamie.pelaez

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'I will bless the YaHuWaH at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.'
~Psalm 34:1